Seems like that recently I’ve been wanting to write some more either on this blog or on my side blog located on wordpress.com. Though, some of the posts that I wrote were posted as private so I could go back and reread them so they could sound better to me and to see if I would need to rewrite them if needed. Or the posts that I write would get deleted after I spend some time in writing them.
I think its the fact of writing that’s been helping me getting some things out in the open and air out the “dirty laundry” that’s been going shifting through my mind. And what I mean by “dirty laundry” is that things that I normally try to say to some doesn’t get really said after the fact. Then if I like the way the post is edited I would then post it, but some, as I have said, I would delete the post that I spent time on doing. Granted it may be a waste of time doing a post but I think its the fact of writing something is or would be helping me in dealing with stuff – if at all. Plus, there are a lot of things that I could write about on this blog or the few other that I have or had in the past but it wouldn’t be right if I did that. Though if I did write about other people and the stuff that they did or have said to me, I think I would be in some kind of legal trouble and that’s why I tend to keep things in the very general sense when I’m writing stuff.
In the past when I post stuff to this blog or to the ones that I’ve had in the past they’ve been to the point and sometimes very brief. Though looking back on things in regards to blogging in general I might have dong things a bit different, in what way I wouldn’t know how I would do things differently. One thing that I would have done differently would be writing some longer posting in some fashion on many different subjects.
Its just that recently that I’ve been writing more constructive, thoughtful or thorough writings. Or in the past which were to the point postings, like the post about the feed for this blog. Speaking of which, the plug-in that I got through feedburner.com which is a wordpress plug-in redirects the regular feed to the feedburner feed. In the options menu for this plug-in has an option for the comments feed too that if you use feedburner for it. I know what I’ve just said might be redundant but if it is please ignore it.
Plus, I think I’m also making up for some lost time in writing some more constructive and longer posts. As it is that I should be writing more stuff other than those post’s that I’ve been complaining about stuff (look in the archive over the last year or two, I might have a couple still visible to the public).
Another thing that I’ve noticed is that after writing some post I tend to get to sleep sooner at night, and another reason would be that getting my somewhat stopped getting worked up about stuff when I go to bed at night. In the past when I when to bed for some reason I would get myself worked up and wouldn’t get to sleep for hours on end. But for some reason is that I’ve (mostly) stopped doing that. Though I’ve been doing that to some extent, but its not getting me anywhere and nowhere fast.
On a side note that I hope or might have a feeling that the situation that I’m currently in …. hopefully … would be getting better but I’m not totally sure yet. Let me say that I’m stuck in the proverbial “rock and a hard place” especially in the last 6 to 8 months. Though, If I’m able to leave Alaska this summer I will and I would take the chance to do it (see this post and this one).
If I was able to leave a couple of years ago I would have left without looking back. But life hasn’t really been kind to me while living in Alaska, and I think having bad karma for a while might have something to do with it. But thats for another post and for another time.
Though I would like to write some more …. now its time to go for now…
bye for now