Recently I haven’t had a lot of motivation to attend to things that I want, should or need to do. One example is going to the gym on a regular basis. Another is working – well updating my website – another would be switching the feeds for this blog over to feedburner. I’m putting the latter off because I’ve got a bunch of old and new themes that I have to modify to make the switch to the feedburner service. Any and all things I want to do on the web or on my pc is because I’m using a Windows pc from Gateway. Gateway PC’s are good but with the Windows OS (any version) is that I just that for some reason can’t or unable to do a lot of stuff that I want to do but it seems like that I’m held back just by using Windows.

Though I tend to get more stuff done with a Macintosh computer’s but I don’t use a Mac on a regular basis anymore hopefully soon.

Anyways, back to the topic on hand…

I want to continue on writing on this subject is that I’m not just motivated enough to finish or contiue with this post.

Taking a break…

As you might notice the title of this post that I’m going to stop blogging for – well atleast until the end of summer. Its to the point where I want to reevaluate the direction of this blog and the rest of my site between now the end of August. THough I would try to finish updating a new look for my site over the next week to 10 days.
There happens to be a lot of stuff going on in my life now to the point where I want to go with my life and try to make “long term” plans. Like where I want to go to grad school and such.

But at this point I just don’t know what to do with my life. It seems like that I’ve been standing at a “fork in the road” in life for the last couple of years or at least for the last year anyway. And its also to the point where it feels like that I can’t even or alowed to change and become further independent from my family. Its just that I get pulled back into my family without much of choice regardless of what and where I want to do with my life.

Anyways, this is or should be my last posting to this blog for while – there might be one more post then that would be it for this blog for the rest of the summer.

Take care everyone

bye from Peter

My Grandfather’s birthday

Yesterday, July 8, would have been my Grandfathers 98th birthday but alas he died about 3 to 4 years ago. Which is sad because my grandmother is now in the hospital and I don’t know if she would make it, though I’m hoping for the best.


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originally uploaded by p_smith.

Here is a another picture of my dog.


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originally uploaded by p_smith.

Here is a picture of one my dog’s.

Missing Dogs

Because of a delivery drivers son from a local pizza place here in Fairbanks, Alaska left open one of the gates that where my dogs run. This happend around 9:30 to 10:30 pm Friday night (July 7, 2006). Now I can’t find my dog. The picture’s of my missing dog are attached to this post. I live about 5 miles Chena Ridge Road in Fairbanks, AK.

If you know anything or seen this dog please leave a few questions in the reply. My worst fear is that he was taken by this delivery driver and his family, but I somewhat doubt that, since this dog is skiddish when people come by or drive through my driveway.

Update: My missing dog had returned back home around 4.00 am this morning

Going to the Gym

Seems that I’ve been very laxed about going to the health club for the past year or so – well more than a year. Granted I’ve been going every so often but I’m talking about going a regular basis – like 5 days a week and not 1 to 3 days a week type of a deal.

By not going the gym 3 to 5 days a week I’ve gained alot of weight to the point where I need to avoid having my health really going down hill and having troubles like most of my family has had in the recent past. Its just that I want, need, and have to go the health club its just that I don’t have the motivation to do so.

When I first joined a local health club I did have motivation to go to the gym but then I think that taking classes at a local University – like 5 classes really put me off from going to the gym on a regular basis. Another problem that I’ve had over the last 3 yrs is that I’ve not changed my workout program – which I did back in April and early May of this year.

I also think I need or should have a workout bud/partner but I’m the type of person who like’s to do thing’s alone, though in some cases I know shouldn’t – like working out in the gym on some of the days I would go in for the new workout program that I did few months back.

What I need to do now is to get back to the gym on consistant basis and change my diet even further to help loose the weight I’ve gained over the last year and the weight that I’ve had all of my life. I will not say how much I weigh here on my blog or anywhere on my site. I might post a picture of myself at some point after losing some or a lot of weight, but I don’t know if or when I would post a picture on my site.

I think this might be an another “turning” point in my life to get back on track and possibly finaly leave Alaska – but I don’t know if this would be another “turning” point. I’ll just see what happens this summer and in the fall.


Many thing’s to do…

There are many thing’s that I want to do like writing more post’s on this blog and I know what I say – generally speaking – its just getting around to actully writing some post’s or working on my site (updating it). I’ve relasied that I’ve been blogging in some fashion for about the last 2 years or so in the fall.

I don’t know if I would be blogging on a regular basis or whatever the case might become be the end of the year. There are many thing’s that I’ve just lost the desire to do on a regular or daily basis (with some things that I won’t mention here – not yet anyway).

Its just that I want to leave many – if not everything behind and just walk away from school, family – even life itself. I know that I can’t or unable to or unwilling to do. I just have to see what happens this year – well for the rest of the year to come.